Shop Mobile More Submit  Join Login
About Varied / Hobbyist Member Courtney18/Female/United States Recent Activity
Deviant for 4 Years
Needs Premium Membership
Statistics 237 Deviations 448 Comments 3,209 Pageviews

Newest Deviations

Favourites

Groups

Activity


hello followers. as you may have realized, i have not been very active. the reason i have not been active is because I had attempted suicide. I overdosed with 31 pills of 40mg antidepressants.  I am fine. the pills didnt harm me in any way. i had spent three days in the extended observation beds, then went to inpatient for five days. i made some friends while i was there, and wasnt as bad as its cracked up to be. i got some therapy and will continue to get outside therapy. just letting everyone know i am alive and well.
  • Mood: Anxious
  • Listening to: Breaking Benjamin
I'm not the person you think you see
'Cause I've got demons inside of me
I may have a smile on my lips
But I have cuts on my wrists and hips
You see I'm damaged, fractured, and broke
I'm surprised I still have hope
No one loves a broken girl
Especially not in this big bad world,
I'm too far gone and you can't save me now
So I will just keep falling down, down, down Into the depths of my own demise
But it's nothing new, not a surprise,
These demons here hate me so Sometimes I think I should just go
'Cause I welcome death with open arms
Death looks nice, it has so much charm,
Nobody here loves me anymore
And life is such a dastardly chore
They want me gone, I can tell so much And someone told me to never trust
So now I know everyone lies
This is what many people need to realize, But people will always trust
'Til that trust turns to dust And take a shot in the dark
Until they are torn apart,
And now maybe you see
Why I have demons haunting me But if you do not
Then you don't know the battles I've fought And don't judge me at all
Because I will just continue to fall
  • Mood: Agony
  • Listening to: Breaking Benjamin
Me and Garrett One Year Anniversary by Spiritmist001
Me and Garrett One Year Anniversary
Its kinda late because our anniversary was really on February 21st, but I was bored so here xD

Lineart: www.deviantart.com/art/Cat-Cou…
Loading...
They don't make it 
the beautiful die in flame- 
suicide pills, rat poison, rope what- 
ever... 
they rip their arms off, 
throw themselves out of windows, 
they pull their eyes out of the sockets, 
reject love 
reject hate 
reject, reject. 

they don't make it 
the beautiful can't endure, 
they are butterflies 
they are doves 
they are sparrows, 
they don't make it. 

one tall shot of flame 
while the old men play checkers in the park 
one flame, one good flame 
while the old men play checkers in the park 
in the sun. 

the beautiful are found in the edge of a room 
crumpled into spiders and needles and silence 
and we can never understand why they 
left, they were so 
beautiful. 

they don't make it, 
the beautiful die young 
and leave the ugly to their ugly lives. 

lovely and brilliant: life and suicide and death 
as the old men play checkers in the sun 
in the park. 
  • Mood: Agony
  • Listening to: Breaking Benjamin

deviantID

Spiritmist001's Profile Picture
Spiritmist001
Courtney
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
All I want is a little of the good life ~Three Days Grace
Interests
hello followers. as you may have realized, i have not been very active. the reason i have not been active is because I had attempted suicide. I overdosed with 31 pills of 40mg antidepressants.  I am fine. the pills didnt harm me in any way. i had spent three days in the extended observation beds, then went to inpatient for five days. i made some friends while i was there, and wasnt as bad as its cracked up to be. i got some therapy and will continue to get outside therapy. just letting everyone know i am alive and well.
  • Mood: Anxious
  • Listening to: Breaking Benjamin

AdCast - Ads from the Community

Journal History

Friends

:iconkittengoddes: :iconshinepawart: :iconzombiesmile: :icontye232: :icontheblackestofstars: :iconzoranphoto: :iconconnicloudie: :iconitabbyandjapaneko: :iconsweaterrs: :iconbpstatic: :iconstarreiivoid: :iconrickriordan: :iconcaptain-fawn: :icondemonfox9tails: :iconteampeeta324: :icontimeherokaiser: :iconshastadog001: :iconreaper-neko: :icontheacryliccat:

Comments


Add a Comment:
 
:iconsaturdaydeath:
saturdaydeath Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2015
Hi. I'm one of Tatiana's random friends XD. Get well soon!
Reply
:iconcaptain-fawn:
Captain-Fawn Featured By Owner May 26, 2014
Happy Birthday! :D FOREST NYMPH: HUEHEHE 
Reply
:icontheacryliccat:
TheAcrylicCat Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Hey, I was looking through my old submissions and I saw a comment of you asking for a request, which I didn't get around to doing. I felt bad that I said yes but didn't do it, so if you like, I can complete a request of your choice? xD
Reply
(1 Reply)
:iconcaptain-fawn:
Captain-Fawn Featured By Owner May 26, 2013
Happy Birthday!! :D
:iconspazhugplz:
Reply
(1 Reply)
:icontheblackestofstars:
TheBlackestofStars Featured By Owner May 25, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy birthday btw
Reply
(1 Reply)
Add a Comment: